The Poetics of an Odd (wo) Man out

Over lunch yesterday, I had this QQ moment where I said, Ako kasi hindi puno ang turing ko sa lalaki... para silang Styro... DISPOSABLE...

Now I'm in big trouble. :D

ito'y para kina Justine at Bixie (happy birthday woot~) Miss na namin kayo .. grabe one year na rin ang nakalipas since this trip.. sana maulit ulit..

Ito'y pa rin sa mga ka-chongkakels: Jerz, Jake, Miray, tin, macky, mayee, and JM at kay Bella at dun sa may bigoteng guy.. hehehe..

Thanks to Jerz, natuklasan ko ang pag-slideshow dito... hehehe... mahirap din mag cut/paste. choz.

This blog post is way overdue...

Nov 10. Isang munting despedida (chips, Magic sing at KFC galore c/o of Jason) ang binigay ng team kay Mayee. Munti kasi wala pa rin sweldo ang mga tao ng mga panahon na ito.Hehe. Ang Asteeg kasi andaming pagpapangap ang ginawa para matago siya kay Mayee. Ayun nga may pagtakbo pa kami nila Jerz at Reuben sa kadiliman, pagtakas ng baso sa pantry (na buti hindi na halata ni Mayee na dala namin sa elevator), paggawa ng kwento na kakain sa Chocolate atbp. Pero nakakaaliw kasi nahalata niya na may something dahil sa 1 lang rice ang inorder ni Macky imbes na 2 (ang press release kasi magluluto sila ng corned beef sa condo kung saan nagtatago kami at bubulagain ang Mayee

Masaya. Halos kumpleto kaming lahat. Kahit chichirya lang at spiked ice team at magic sing at kafak ang meron kami. maraming kwento. May nalaglag sa kalsada, may nakalimot sa ideology niya on KFC, may interrogation session with chachi, may haiku pa, at maraming maraming kanta ....

Ito ang ilan sa mga larawan nung araw na iyon:

naghihintay sa pagdating ni Mayee.. mother and paulee nag-aayus ng chips while macky, eric and Jake, chism on the side

mother serenades us including father

Classic mother pose

Classic Paulee pose

kantahan na~

Kainan na~ woot!

Super mamimiss namin si Mayee--ang kanyang giggles, books (yun pala yun eh) at siyempre SIYA mismo.. di bale mabilis lang naman ang three months :)

See yah Mayee~

Habang naghihintay ng susunod na VR, nabasa ko ito from Macky's blog. Naaalala ko lang bigla yung finals namin sa Theology class (Marriage and Family life) about the characteristics of our ideal guy. So ayun, inuunkat ko yung utak ko at try kong tandaan ang mga pinagsusulat ko dun... Hmmmm

1. He won't mind holding my sweaty hands (pasmado kasi ako)
2. maalagain pero hindi ako i-baby.
3. yung tuturuan akong maging matapang
4. may sariling pag-iisip at ambition sa buhay
5. mabait at loyal dapat
6. tanggap ang kabaliwan ko
7. tahimik pero kalog kasama
8. hindi maririndi sa tuwing pag-iyak ko pero yayakapin na lang ako
9. mahilig din dapat magbasa ng books
10. kayang sakyan ang trip ko sa buhay
11. kelangan ma-convince nia akong kumain ng gulay
12. maginoo pero medyo bastos (corny man)
13. slight athletic na magtuturo sa kin to try sports
14. hindi mama's boy
15. supportive lolo
16. hindi magdictate sa kin kung ano dapat isuot, klase ng hairstyle, or dapat gawin sa buhay ko
17. slight seloso
18. yung hindi ako ikakahiyang makasama
19. maka-Diyos
20. dapat may pagka-humanitarian siya
21. mahal niya ako

P.S. this was originally posted in my LJ blog :)

"Gurl, daily ka ba?" stint just ended this month as Eric and tin decided that its time for me to try a shifting sked. It's actually pretty cool going to work only every other day except that I have to wake up early. I guess I've been used to waking up at around past 7 when my sked was still 11 am. So what does shifting sked means? ...

1.more time to do personal projects/agenda
2.more time with my family
3.fix other documents
4.i can go to SSS and get my own ID
5.reunite with old friends
6.less time in the office
7.try my hands on other activities/opportunities
8. tipid sa baon (sana)
9. start my studies
10. more time to read books (woot)~

a shifting sked is an inevitable change but its something that i want to experience. It's a welcome change.

While Mayee was washing her tumblers last Friday she asked what were my plans this Halloween and I told her none. Baffled, she asked again if we're not visiting any relatives graves and I told her that my family is going to visit my lolo and lola's graves. Then she narrated that if his younger brother were alive, he could have been 21 years old now. This conversation suddenly made me remember my dead sister. If she were alive, she could have been 24 turning 25 years old next January. Actually, Angelina,(my sister's name) and I were both born on the same year. It's just that she was born January and I was born December. After she died, my mother became pregnant again after two months, hence i was created.

This just makes me wonder, what my sister is like if she was here instead of me. My nanay usually told me that if my sister were alive, I wouldn't probably been created or something. I wondered, what my sister looks like, is she talkative, modest,tall, thin, chubby,kind, friendly? I wondered, if she can make a difference and make this world a little bit better? nope. i'm not wallowing here or having self-pity moments, just plain curious. But i guess there's a reason why I am here instead of her, I believe I'm here because I have a specific role that the universe wants me to fulfill. I am here because I have to make a difference. I am here to touch people's lives. I am here because i was meant to be here.

Yesterday, tatay arrived after almost a year of being away from us.Masaya.At the office, there were free food i.e. pancit and ice cream courtesy of the halloween prize.. Woot~ busog.


Impending doom or just me hyperventilating (again). The oral exam on Saturday, which I haven't reviewed yet. Hopefully I'll pass but whatever happens whether I fail or pass, I'm still going to try and try. After the team building we had last weekend, after experiencing it, i really feel strong that anything and everything is possible. I'm starting to believe in myself again. Thank God :)