The Poetics of an Odd (wo) Man out

Where do sadness come from? Why do people feel sad? what triggers their sadness? Is melancholy as fleeting as happiness? ....

Saturday morning: Shakespeare jumped off the creek in front of our house. Shakespeare who is more than 10 years old and 80% blind accidentally fell in the creek. Everyone was trying to help him and pull him out of there. But the thing is, no one wants to carry a scarred (galisin) dog. We tried to tell Shakespeare to grab the long stick so we can pull him up but since he's blind he didn't see the stick. He ran off to the other side of the creek and returned at night. We can hear him barking but we can't do anything. Then, it rained so hard that night so we're assuming that the currents washed him away. :((

Today,nanay said in verbatim ito, "hindi na kita kilala.." which really surprised me. She said I spent most of my time in the office that we often don't see each other anymore. She even suspects that may be I have a "boyfriend" that I'm hiding. What can I say? I certainly did change but it doesn't mean that I'm doing something bad or whatever. And for the record, I DON'T HAVE a BOYFRIEND!! If I have a Bf, I'd probably not hide it.. I'm 23.. so what's there to hide? I mean I'm in the right age.. haay.. LONG SIGHS.. I guess I just want to spread my wings. I'd like to stay in the office and work so I won't have time to really "think and contemplate" things cause it's just makes me really really sad. I want to be so tired that when I reach home, I'm going to sleep well. I don't want to have a time for thinking things over and over. Or maybe I just want to escape this inescapble melancholy... I dont really know. I guess they (my parents) just have to trust me..I'll be okay....

... this will pass right?

After a year, the picture still tells the same tale...

Here's my new cubie at the 15th floor...



and my tag:



Welcome.. welcome... i miss 14th..

After I went back from GK, I received an email about our new cube assignments on the 15th floor. I was really surprised to find out that we were transferring the following week since there wasn't any formal announcement of sorts. I had an idea of this plan since it was mentioned during our meeting last May. But at that time it was just really a "plan" and no one had really confirm it. I also thought that the transfer will happen very very soon and not asap that's why I was really shocked.

Personally I want and don't want to transfer because of the ff reasons:

Pro Transfer:
-bigger cubes, more space
-private and very quiet (as opposed to the open cube on the 14th flr)
-you can sleep during work hours without people seeing you
-you can do any sitting position
-it's not that cold
-you can think clearly and work effectively since there are no distractions
-near manangskie
-there's a transfer elevator nearby
-few people using the comfort room (CR)

Con Transfer:
-the wonderful people and other personal agenda (hahaha)
-i'm used to the 14th floor working environment
-it's much easier to go to the "sources" if you have any question
-it's much easier to communicate to your teammates since you can see one another
- no chika tym
-claustrophobic at first sitting (coz of big cubies)
-during events we don't have to go anywhere because all events happen in our area
- no BORACAY room
-pantry juices (the juice and coffee are way sweeter than that of 14th's)
-no Ms Claire and her chocolates at the 15th floor

Changes happen so fast and for a very good reason. I'm sure that I can get use to this new space and environment we have here but I'll definitely miss our old floor and the people there. I just hope they also miss us.. hehehehe

June 14. Back to aula ang drama ng ateh mo. Matapos ang isang buwan ng pagiging "idle" sa hindi pag-aaral ng Spanish ayan balik IC ulit ako bilang isang nivel seis na estudyante. Medyo venga kasi nag-skip ako ng nivel 5 dahil nagbago ang curriculum kaso nga lang hindi lang nivel ko tumaas kundi pati ang aking matricula.

Madaming pagbabago ang nangyayari--isa na diyan yung sked na 9-12 (mula sa pagiging 1-4 dati), panibagong mga kaklase, pakikisama at bagong professor.

Dahil First day, ayan na naman ang introduce yourself chenes na sobrang nahirapan ako dahil hindi ko na maalala ang preterito indefinido at perfecto. tsk. ayan kaya noong tinanong QUE HAS HECHO? tsug. sabog di na makasagot. Hay. Pati media noche nalimutan ko na. Hay ayan hindi kasi nag-aaral eh. On positive light(ayan gud news), naiintindihan ko naman halos yung sinasabi ng professor ko at mga kaklase ko.. hehehe

Dahil sa pangyayaring ito, naisip ko na dapat seryosohin ang pag-aaral nito, like mag-review naman bago pumasok o manood o makinig ng mga bagay bagay na related sa spanish. hay. sana maging maayus naman ang lahat...

Here's to hoping I could watch at least one movie...